Music, love and sun

Truth About Growing Up

Sun, 24 Feb 2013 22:19:50 -0700

Found this on Pinterest and thought I would share because so much of it is true. I haven’t reached my late 20’s yet but I can already tell which category my friends or former friends will fall into. What are you doing with your life? Which category will you find yourself in?

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This is the thing: When you hit 28 or 30, everything begins to divide. You can see very clearly two kinds of people.

On one side, people who have used their 20s to learn and grow, to find … themselves and their dreams, people who know what works and what doesn’t, who have pushed through to become real live adults.

Then there’s the other kind, who are hanging onto college, or high school even, with all their might. They’ve stayed in jobs they hate, because they’re too scared to get another one. They’ve stayed with men or women who are good but not great, because they don’t want to be lonely. … they mean to develop intimate friendships, they mean to stop drinking like life is one big frat party.

But they don’t do those things, so they live in an extended adolescence, no closer to adulthood than when they graduated.

Don’t be like that.

Don’t get stuck.

Move, travel, take a class, take a risk.

There is a season for wildness and a season for settledness, and this is neither. This season is about becoming.

Don’t lose yourself at happy hour, but don’t lose yourself on the corporate ladder either.

Stop every once in a while and go out to coffee or climb in bed with your journal.

Ask yourself some good questions like: “Am I proud of the life I’m living? What have I tried this month? … Do the people I’m spending time with give me life, or make me feel small? Is there any brokenness in my life that’s keeping me from moving forward?”

Now is your time.

Walk closely with people you love, and with people who believe … life is a grand adventure.

Don’t get stuck in the past, and don’t try to fast-forward yourself into a future you haven’t yet earned.

Give today all the love and intensity and courage you can, and keep traveling honestly along life’s path.

Forbes 40 Things To Say Before You Die: #39

Sun, 25 Nov 2012 11:13:02 -0700

Today is good.

Honestly, I haven’t said that enough lately.

I’ve been so let down by my trials and ventures off the path I thought I set out to do the past couple months that I haven’t really taken the chance to just appreciate a good day, no matter how small.

And that’s such a shame.

My life here in Vegas hasn’t been hard. I’ve been extremely fortunate to have the opportunities (no matter how big or small) presented to me. I moved out here with a place to live, a small handful of friends and a job at my feet. I’ve met a couple of people who have become my friends and landed a really great internship that has taught me that I really do want to pursue the PR industry as a career. Call me crazy but I’d say I’m doing well for a kid fresh out of college who didn’t have an exact idea of what I wanted to create with my life.

What it comes down to is the little things, that’s what makes your day good.

I’ve kept my dreams alive with small glimmers of what I imagine my life to be. Every time I get down about my work at Best Buy, about not knowing how I’m going to balance paying the bills with having a social life or with not knowing what lies ahead, simply imagining my future keeps me going.

Daydreaming makes my day good. And every day I am thankful that I can dream about my future because it means there’s a fire inside of me that strives for something better.

That’s enough for me right now.

Today is good because I can dream.

Today is good because I hope for a better tomorrow and a better life.

Today is good because I know tomorrow (some tomorrow) will always be better than my day was today. I feel like it sounds a bit cheesy but I know that because I am driven to make something happen in the future, whether it be in my career, a future trip, with friends or when I finally fall in love, I always have will always have something to look forward to and that makes today worth living.

Forbes: 40 Things to Say Before You Die Challenge

Fri, 05 Oct 2012 11:15:00 -0600

So recently I stumbled upon an article on the Forbes website titled “40 Things to Say Before You Die” and I was immediately drawn in. As I read through their list I began to realize how many of the phrases on this list that I had either though or said in my life, most over the past year.

I’ve grown so much even since my graduation in December. It really is a beautiful process and I’ve learned so much about myself in that short time frame.

So after reading this article I was inspired to share my stories or dreams of these 40 things I must say before I die. With that, here is my first blog in my attempt to fulfill this personal challenge and share my story with the world.

The first phrase:

40) “I wonder.”

How simple a thought, “I wonder.”

What have you wondered about today? Or this week?

October is a new month for new dreams and new goals.

For me the past week has made me wonder about the possibility of a new career opportunity. I recently interviewed for a PR Coordinator position with Faiss Foley Warren and it’s all I’ve been day dreaming and “wondering” about. I’m driving myself insane with all the possibilities of my future with this company and how they could simply be the kick start my PR career in Vegas needs.

Aside from my new PR possibilities, I’ve been wondering where my life will lead me in the coming years. I honestly can’t even plan my life past the next couple of weeks so wondering about the next year, the next five years is plenty for me and my imagination to go wild with.

Here’s what I see:

I definitely do not plan on making Vegas my home. Initially I thought I would stay here but after these few months I’ve figured out it’s most definitely somewhere I just wanna jump start my career and get real PR firm experience.

I see myself moving to Cali around 25-27 years of age. Why? Well I’m 23 now, so that gives me time to get this “experience” I’m talking about as well as kind of figure out what my niche in PR is so that I can successfully apply my passions and talents to that brand of PR.

Now I want to move to Cali simply because I think that’s definitely my kind of place, my kind of surroundings, my kind of people. It’ll just be an easy fit in for me. I’ve always had nothing but love for Cali and that love grew stronger with each and every trip I took to SoCal. There’s just an endless amount of possibilities and you don’t run the risk of meeting the same kind of people, as you do here in Vegas.

Here’s the thing about Vegas, yes, for nightlife and entertainment PR I definitely chose the right place. However, and most importantly, I just don’t know that there are quality people here I can feel comfortable calling my friends, my partners in crime and that’s just unsettling to me. I live for my friends and not being able to find the kind of people I’m used to surrounding myself with is unnerving and uncomfortable with me. I thrive being in friendships I can depend on, on friendships who depend on me as well and there’s just not enough of that here for me to want to stay.

Vegas will simply be a place I learned something about myself from. A place that pushed me outside my comfort level. A place that forced me to struggle and helped me become stronger bc I was able to bounce back from my struggles, no matter how small or large they may have seemed. A place that forced me to take a look at my morals and see what I was okay and not okay with. (And there has definitely been a lot of moral evaluation going on in my head the past few months… Since I got here really)

There’s just so much to simply “wonder” about. It’s beautiful actually. Beautiful and simple.

My #edcvegas pile after two days… #kandi #craft time! ...

Mon, 28 May 2012 00:58:49 -0600

My #edcvegas pile after two days… #kandi #craft time! (Taken with instagram)

#pizza making time with @angelhoe87… Soundtracking...

Sun, 27 May 2012 21:03:28 -0600

#pizza making time with @angelhoe87… Soundtracking @deadmau5’s meowington hax tour (Taken with instagram)

Shit just got #real… #Moving to #vegas in 15 days! (Taken...

Fri, 18 May 2012 00:22:51 -0600

Shit just got #real… #Moving to #vegas in 15 days! (Taken with instagram)

One of my #edcvegas shirts… Describes me perfectly! Dream...

Fri, 04 May 2012 13:15:40 -0600

One of my #edcvegas shirts… Describes me perfectly! Dream on, little #dreamer (Taken with instagram)

Thank you @michael_woods for an unforgettable set in #abq ...

Sun, 29 Apr 2012 01:52:49 -0600

Thank you @michael_woods for an unforgettable set in #abq (Taken with instagram)

For my bestie, my other half

Thu, 26 Apr 2012 19:04:00 -0600

Every time I throw on the mix CD I made for my best friend before she left to Europe I almost immediately regret it. Memories flood my brain and I’m reminded that she’s half way across the world.

Today I decided I needed a break from catching up with Above and Beyond’s Trance Around the World and trade the trio’s composition of flowing trance for something more indie.

I turned my iPod to the Hush Sound. Gravitating to one of my favorite songs off the album, The Artist. It was like an instant light bulb went off in my head and I thought, “of course, turn on the ‘Goodbye Mix’ you made Alicia”

Bad idea.

Explanation: The reason for the instant regret isn’t so much a heart-wrenching, sadness-filled type of regret but rather the type of regret that reminds you of where you are currently and where you’d rather be.

So instead of playing the mix in the order I made it, I decided to throw on ‘The Artist’ and put the mix on shuffle. The next song came on, ‘Bridge Over Troubled Water’, and I lost it.

My thoughts were racing and all I could think about was my friendship with Alicia.

I can without a doubt say that she is my best friend. And I can also say that our friendship is the ONLY friendship I have ever had zero doubts about.

Never once have I thought our friendship wouldn’t last. Never once have I thought she would leave me and never once have I thought about leaving her. Never. Once.

Our friendship has more pages than I even know how to write. We’ve been through it all together. We’ve both made mistakes, mistakes that would completely rip other friendships apart. We’ve been there for each other, even when we didn’t ask for it.

With her being in Europe, the biggest pain for me has been that I haven’t been able to get out there to see her. And it’s all been about timing and I love her because she understands.

Ever since she left we’ve been planning our trip and each time something in my life got in the way.

First it was my car payment and finances. They were no were near in check to get out to Europe. Sure, I had saved the money to get out to see her but I completely forgot about saving extra for my car. At the time, my vacation out to see her was supposed to be a fairly long one. Then it was my internship. And finally, it was my decision to move to Vegas in June.

When she decided to leave to go on her adventure almost two years ago, my heart broke. I knew it was going to be a different life without her being say 5 minutes away. But I knew I couldn’t tell her not to go. even though I’m sure she wouldn’t have listened to me. I don’t think I ever even tried to talk her out of it because I knew that her dream was to travel the world.

Moral of the story: We support each others dreams.

So, this mix, this almost perfect mix, is such a definition of our friendship and each time I turn it on, I hear something different.

Today I was reminded that if there’s one area of my life I’ll never have to second guess, it’s Alicia. She really is my other half. The things that girl knows about me and my life, sometimes I wonder if she doesn’t know me better than I know myself, as cliche as that sounds. Even when we’re half a world apart she still knows exactly when to call and exactly what to say. It’s creepy really, but a good creepy… If there is such thing.

I miss her more than life and I can’t wait til she’s back in the states. We’ve managed to figure out a way to live separate lives, pursue separate dreams and somehow, we’ve found a way to make it all work. Even though circumstances and people in our life change, we’ve kept things like they’ve been since day one.

Strong, unbreakable, comfortable and honest.

A lesson out of ABQ

Fri, 06 Apr 2012 17:56:58 -0600

Coming to Albuquerque I knew I was going to learn a lot of new lessons.

As an intern at the Journal, I figured my writing would improve and I’d learn some new skills in newswriting. As a roommate, I figured I’d learn new life lessons and as a new comer in this city, I figured I’d learn my way around. All of which seem to be true.

Well, aside from the obvious lessons I was expecting I learned a lot more about myself than I anticipated.

I’ve had a lot on my mind as of late, and by a lot I mean planning my life after this internship ends in May. I made the decision to get out of this desert hole called New Mexico and move on to a new life in Las Vegas. Yes, the Las Vegas.While a couple of people think that city isn’t right for me, taking my crazy antics and partying ways into account, I personally think it’s right where I need to be.

The reason I’m not scared to make this leap of faith is because of what I’ve learned here in Albuquerque.

I’m okay by myself. I’m good at being alone and going on solo missions. And it’s insanely easy for me to meet people and make friends on my own.

In other words, I can take care of myself. That’s what Albuquerque has taught me.

I mean, in Cruces it was SO easy for me to rely on my friends. If I didn’t want to face a problem alone (or at all) a friend was just a phone call away. In Albuquerque, that was not the case. Here, in ABQ, I basically had like one friend. I mean, I have more but I had one friend that I knew I could trust whole heartedly. And even though I couldn’t be more thankful to have her in my life, there were still some things that I just couldn’t tell her.

Being forced to deal with my problems, fears and and crazy ideas for the future alone really made me see how strong I am. By no means did I have to go through anything insanely rough but simply adjusting to a new city you’re not happy in can be kind of difficult in its own sense.

Anywho, knowing that I can handle my own has been incredibly life changing. I love knowing that I can go out and have a drink by myself and not feel insecure. I love that I can go to shows and entertain myself and meet new people. I mean, I was basically doing that in El Paso anyway because anyone who knows me, knows that I love to go off and wander by myself but it’s TOTALLY different in Albuquerque. I don’t have that safety net of friends waiting around for me upstairs or on the dancefloor. Here I’m genuinely going out by myself, dancing by myself and it’s all alright. I fucking love it actually.

I’m so excited for these next two months to pass because once they’re done, I’m done. With Albuquerque, that is. I’m thrilled for this new adventure that I have planned for myself. I don’t know what’s going to happen, where I’ll be working, who I’ll meet or how things will play out but I know everything’s going to be fine. It’s the right adventure for me. Something has been pulling me towards Las Vegas for easily the past year and that pull has been overwhelmingly strong and that’s how I know it’s the right move for me. That pull and natural curiosity towards the city is how I know I’m doing the right thing.

There’s so much room for growth for me and I feel like there’s so many opportunities out there for me. I’ve known most my life that I wanted to somehow get involved in the entertainment and nightlife business, so what better place to make my dreams come true than one of the nightlife and entertainment capital’s of the US. It just makes perfect sense to me.

So in two months I’m taking a leap. This may just be the biggest chance I’ve ever taken in my life. I’m pretty much putting it in God’s hands. I’m going to Vegas and I’m going to make it. I’ll accept nothing less.

So the stripes are a lil small but still think this I perf for...

Mon, 26 Mar 2012 23:52:09 -0600

So the stripes are a lil small but still think this I perf for my Waldo costume for edc! (Taken with instagram)

A Way or an Excuse

Fri, 16 Mar 2012 21:16:00 -0600

So during my down time at work I tend to get hooked on this little website called Pinterest. For those who don’t know what Pinterest is, it’s basically a site where you can “pin” articles, photographs, art, just about anything and share them with your followers. I tend to spend a lot of time in the Prints and Posters section because you can find really great and inspirational quotes, not to mention some really funny ones too.

Lately I’ve seen one quote that has particularly stood out to be:

If it’s important you’ll find a way, if it’s not you’ll find an excuse.

Seeing it so often has gotten me to thinking about just how true that small but powerful statement is in every aspect of my life, big and small.

The situation that really got me thinking about this quote is my upcoming trip to California. I’ve been dying to go to Beyond for a couple years and when my friends started talking about going this year, I thought PERFECT! Take me with you! (famous last words, I know)

But timing with my new internship just didn’t feel right. I was hesitant about asking for any time off just because I’m an intern and I felt I needed to prove myself and make sacrifices for this position and my future.

So here I am, crushed because I know I can’t go to Coachella because let’s be honest, trying to get a close to a whole week off really just wasn’t going to happen, so I chose to take a step back and accept the fact that this year just isn’t going to happen for me and Coachella.

SIDE RANT:(I’m sorry Coachella, just know you’re still in my heart and I’ll miss you more than you know this first weekend… because let’s be honest… the first weekend is where it’s at… keep it original)

Anyway, once I figured Coachella was a no-go, I decided to focus on smaller more realistic adventures I could go on

ENTER: Idea #1 Beyond Wonderland and Idea #2 Denver

Faggle Rock and I had been talking more than we’d talked in months when I finally moved up to ABQ. There were talks of me going to visit him up in Denver and him coming down here… And all for what? I don’t know… A hang out sesh, a drinking sesh and a hook-up?! Yeah… sounds about right.

So this goes on for about two solid months and every time, I never booked my flight.

The first time I was ready and willing to hop on expedia and say “hello Denver!” he ended up being super flaky about plans and for anyone that knows me, I’m not one to travel without some sort of plan. I mean what if I got stranded at the airport because he couldn’t pick me up or he worked one of the days I was there and I ended up stuck hanging out at his house with the dogs… Not exactly how I wanna spend my mini-adventure. So FAIL!

Then it just became this game…

FR: When are you coming to Denver?

Me: It was your idea to come here first, when are you coming to ABQ?

and so on… and so on… you get the picture.

So I got over it and moved on to a new mission. Beyond.

During the time I was planning my Beyond trip there was still talks of traveling to Denver but the difference is, and the point I’m trying to make with this novel of a story, is that all it took was one yes for Beyond and I made it happen. With Denver, the yes was there the whole time, we would have found a way to work something out plus we have a mutual friend that lives in Denver and she would have most likely been able to pick me up and hang if Faggle Rock ended up being busy with work but still every time I made an excuse.

So what does that say? I don’t know, I haven’t figured that out quite yet. Maybe my priorities lie in music based adventures, with friends who get my music and enjoy my music, instead of an adventure that I don’t know the outcome of.

With my Beyond adventure, I know I’m going to have the time of my life and I know my perspectives will change or I’ll at least be reminded of why I work so hard. Had I gone to Denver I’d worry about what we were going to do, is FR going to have to work leaving me to go on a solo adventure, was he going to make some condescending comment about my life choices. (and I mean everything from my “shitty techno music” to how horrible Vegas and California are) Having to worry about whether or not he was going to keep his meaningless and pointless comments to himself, not so fun.

And truth be told, maybe they aren’t meaningless and pointless because he manages to get a rise out of me every time he mentions the shit he mentions BUT I just think he should be supportive. Like cool, I get it, you hate my trance and house music but get over it… I don’t give him slack for the things he does with his life… I say do it if it makes you happy, he says I don’t know how you do (enter some topic here)

Long story short:

Do what makes you happy because if it’s important you’ll find a way and if it’s not you’ll find an excuse.

Tomorrow! Tomorrow! Tomorrow! Let’s Dance :)

Fri, 16 Mar 2012 20:05:46 -0600

Tomorrow! Tomorrow! Tomorrow! Let’s Dance :)

True story

Sun, 11 Mar 2012 17:44:38 -0600

True story

Photo

Sat, 10 Mar 2012 22:23:48 -0700

This time next week I will me dancing it out at Beyond...

Sat, 10 Mar 2012 16:36:50 -0700

This time next week I will me dancing it out at Beyond Wonderland in San Bernardino with my amazing friends and my trance family :)

Can’t even wait! Let’s go! <3

154 Questions about me...

Thu, 16 Feb 2012 22:31:00 -0700

So, I’m a little bored at work and I haven’t done one of these since the MySpace days… Seems like a good way to pass some time in the newsroom… So, here’s to getting to know me I suppose :)

Ask.

1: Full name: Ashley Renee Trevizo
2: Zodiac sign: Capricorn… And from what I’ve read I embody the traits of a Capricorn to the ‘T’
3: 3 Fears: Growing old alone, not finding a career that’s in line with my passion of music and the dark (yes, I’m serious)
4: 3 things I love: Music (in all its forms), writing, the rain
5: 4 turns on: A lengthy music collection that can introduce me to new art, hair pulling, spontaneity, a good wardrobe
6: 4 turns off: Close-mindedness, bad teeth, bad tippers, ignorance
7: My best friend: Lives in Italy and is my whole world… The other one doesn’t realize how much I love and care for him.
8: Sexual orientation: Addicted to boys…
9: My best first kiss: Took place in the rain… And it was amazing not so much bc of the person but bc the kiss was just so DAMN hot!
10: How tall am I: 5’3” I’m a shorty
11: What do I miss: I miss my hometown and I miss not having a care in the world…
12: What time were I born: Around 9 am… ish…
13: Favourite color: Turquoise… teal… any variation of the two
14: Do I have a crush: Always and forever
15: Favourite quote: In three words I can sum up everything I learned in life: It goes on… (Robert Lee Frost)
16: Favourite place: There’s a few… the bathtub is one (it’s amazing what kind of thinking you can get done in there), this spot up behind Picacho Hills in LC (the view is spectacular) and being alone in a crowd of people at a festival, dancing your heart out like no one is around, like nothing matters, where it’s just you and the music… fucking beautiful!
17: Favourite food: My mom’s queso!
18: Do I use sarcasm: Often
19: What am I listening to right now: The police scanner in the newsroom… listening for something crazy to go down… I’d rather be listening to music though…
20: First thing I notice in new person: Eyes… I find I can tell a lot about a person based on their eyes… Not gonna lie, it’s a big factor in how I chose my friends… If I can’t trust your eyes, chances are I can’t trust you…
21: Shoe size: 8-8.5
22: Eye color: Hazel… I love them bc they change with what I wear and what I feel… a rare quality
23: Hair color: Umm… it’s about 5 shades of brown right now… never dying it again…
24: Favourite style of clothing: On me, well I like the preppy/casual look and I wear lots of skirts and dresses… also a big fan of color blocking.
On the opposite sex: nice jeans and a t-shirt (preferably a v-neck) or jeans w/ a blazer… both with killer shoes… I’m a sucker for guys with good shoes
25: Ever done a prank call?: Yeah… when I was like 5…
26: What colour of underwear I’m wearing now?: TMI… but hot pink hipsters from VS
27: Meaning behind my URL: I’m obsessed with MUSIC, LOVE and the SUNNY side of life… hence music, love and sun…
28: Favourite movie: Hmm… Well I can always watch Alice in Wonderland (in either Disney or Tim Burton form) and (500) Days of Summer… so probably those…
29: Favourite song: Such an impossible question! Can I narrow it down to 3? Well… I Miss You by Incubus (Brandon’s vocals are too good for words), Screaming Infedelities by Dashboard Confessional (The track sparked my interest in the group and has withstood the test of time) and Move for Me by Kaskade and Deadmau5 (it’s my song for my bestie)
30: Favourite band: You can basically see the above answers… add in Above and Beyond…
31: How I feel right now: Honestly, like I want a drink… Sounds like a good pick me up haha
32: Someone I love: My mother… to the moon and back…
33: My current relationship status: I’m always in some sort of a flirtationship haha
34: My relationship with my parents: My mom is my rock and my best friend
35: Favourite holiday: My birthday week… It consists of Christmas, my birthday and NYE :)
36: Tattoos and piercing i have: 2 piercings (nose/lip) 6 tats (cherry blossoms, music symbols, “let it be”, blue fish, rose w/ infinity symbol, tat for my hometown)
37: Tattoos and piercing i want: Piercings none… Tat one for my Papo, although I haven’t figured out what exactly
38: The reason I joined Tumblr: I was over blogger and my friend Chris had just shown me his Tumblr…
39: Do I and my last ex hate each other?: I wouldn’t say hate… Although I can’t stand the sight of him or anything he has to say… He just has no value in my life any longer
40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?: Good morning yes… Good night… Only when preceded by some drunk texts about visiting CO and that whole deal w/ faggle rock
41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?: What? Have I kissed the last person I texted? That would be Faggle Rock and yes, yes I have
42: When did I last hold hands?: Pfft… I’m gonna go with the last time I went to a massive and didn’t wanna lose someone… Not much of a hand holder…
43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?: Depends on if I’m getting ready right away or if I can draw it out… But generally like 45 mins or so…
44: Have I shaved your legs in the past three days?: Hmmm… yeah I think so… at least in the past week
45: Where am I right now?: Hanging out in the newsroom at the Journal
46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?: Probably no one… I tend to take care of myself…
47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?: Loud and Bassy!
48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad?: Nope… not anymore
49: Am I excited for anything?: I’m excited for Beyond and to see my free spirited only child rager twin… and past that getting out of NM… just gotta decide where I wanna go… leaning towards Vegas, CO or NYC
50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?: Umm… not exactly… I have different friends of the opposite sex that I tell certain things to… if you put them all together then I’d have one lol
51: How often do I wear a fake smile?: Only when needed… I’m not good at hiding my feelings but I also know when I don’t want the world to know my struggles
52: When was the last time I hugged someone?: On my secret lunch date… saying hi to Shaun
53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?: Pretty sure that was the Cali couple… It probably be a repeat of New Year’s weekend… haha oh yes!!
54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?: You should never trust a man who wears sandals with socks…
55: What is something I disliked about today?: The mini hangover I had…
56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?: Kaskade… absolutely… I will interview him one
57: What do I think about most?: I have a crazy habit of daydreaming… I make up crazy situations in my head and the different outcomes of those situations… lately it’s been about Faggle Rock bc he’s a weirdo
58: What’s my strangest talent?: High fives…
59: Do I have any strange phobias?: Terribly scared of the dark… idk why
60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?: Both… I love taking pictures, especially of people bc capturing that “exact” moment is SO fulfilling… But I also love being in pics on a good night out…
61: What was the last lie I told?: Hmm… Probably that I was fine…
62: Do I perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online?: On the phone
63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?: Yes and yes…
64: Do I believe in magic?: I believe in illusions
65: Do I believe in luck?: Absolutely… I have the best of luck
66: What’s the weather like right now?: Umm… no idea… I’ve been inside for hours… probably cold… maybe sprinkling
67: What was the last book I’ve read?: Currently reading The Power and I Hope They Serve Beer in Hell
68: Do I like the smell of gasoline?: Actually yes
69: Do I have any nicknames?: Cheese, Smash, Babs
70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had?: I broke my wrist in Kindergarten…
71: Do I spend money or save it?: Both… trying to do more of the latter
72: Can I touch my nose with a tounge?: Negative… not that talented
73: Is there anything pink in 10 feets from me?: Highlighters… memo pads…
74: Favourite animal?: Giraffes lately… They’re cute
75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM?: I was drinking at O’Niell’s… probably claiming my personalized cup as a part of their Feb contest
76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is?: Kern
77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?: There’s so many… lately it’s been We Found Love…
78: How can you win my heart?: Love music, speak well, be a cuddle bug, dress savvy, have colored eyes, wear corduroy’s with flip flops and a white v-neck, get me
79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone?: I won’t have a tombstone… I want to be cremated
80: What is my favorite word?: Smitten <3
81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr: Hmmm… idk… this razz dude I’m following seems cool…
82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?: The arts are important… indulge in them, expose your children to them and take in all their beauty
83: Do I have any relatives in jail?: I don’t think so
84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?: Telepathy… I think… although in cases like Sookie of True Blood… it can be a curse… but can’t every super power?
85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on?: What’s really going on with you guys…
86: What is my current desktop picture?: My only desktop is at work and it’s some blue background…
87: Had sex?: Lately no… ever… yes
88: Bought condoms?: Same as above actually…
89: Gotten pregnant?: Never have I ever…
90: Failed a class?: CJ 101… yeah I know…
91: Kissed a boy?: Too many to count and some I’d like to forget
92: Kissed a girl?: A handful… In a lot of cases they’re better kissers actually…
93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain?: See above story… it’s like question 5 or something
94: Had job?: Thankfully I’ve always been employed
95: Left the house without my wallet?: A couple times
96: Bullied someone on the internet?: Drew doesn’t count
97: Had sex in public?: Negative… I’m too much of a pussy
98: Played on a sports team?: Soccer for many years… Volleyball and Basketball in mid school
99: Smoked weed?: One of the things I miss
100: Did drugs?: I’ve done my fair share..
101: Smoked cigarettes?: Eww… yes, sadly
102: Drank alcohol?: One of my favorite past times… especially in the summer when there’s patio weather :)
103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan?: Nope… I love chicken
104: Been overweight?: Yep… by my standards…
105: Been underweight?: Nope… never had that privilege
106: Been to a wedding?: Yeah… they’re alright…
107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight?: Every day I come to work… hence this survey…
108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight?: Hmmm… yeah… on my lazy Sundays
109: Been outside my home country?: Juarez hardly counts… but oh were those the days!
110: Gotten my heart broken?: I’d like to say yes, but never having been in love, I think I can say no… Although there have been times when I was so sad I literally thought my heart was breaking…
111: Been to a professional sports game?: Pro football… Cowboys v Cardinals
112: Broken a bone?: Just my wrist…
113: Cut myself?: Welcome to my freshman year of HS…
114: Been to prom?: Just my junior prom…
115: Been in airplane?: Oh I’m a travel bee… I love planes
116: Fly by helicopter?: On my bucket list
117: What concerts have I been to?: You don’t seriously want me to list them all do you? That list would go on for days… I’m quite the concert and festival whore…
118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex?: A couple different ones but honestly, I would never act on them… I just can’t imagine banging a girl
119: Learned another language?: Tried and failed..
120: Wore make up?: Wearing eye shadow and mascara right now…
121: Lost my virginity before I was 18?: Guilty… fuck
122: Had oral sex?: Yep, been there too…
123: Dyed my hair?: Used to do it all the time, now I never will again
124: Voted in a presidential election?: 2008
125: Rode in an ambulance?: Well isn’t that one a story… We’ll save that for another blog…
126: Had a surgery?: On my toe once…
127: Met someone famous?: A couple celebs and DJ’s and the crew of Channel One… I thought I was the shit… haha
128: Stalked someone on a social network?: Only all my friends :P
129: Peed outside?: Yep… These questions are getting lame
130: Been fishing?: Only with a stick and some string…
131: Helped with charity?: Sadly no… call me selfish
132: Been rejected by a crush?: Yeah… we’ve all been rejected at some point, although at this exact moment I can’t think of a story…
133: Broken a mirror?: Just the side rear view mirror to my car… Well my first car…
134: What do I want for birthday?: For someone to take me to a show and dance all night with me…
135: How many kids do I want and what will be their names?: Zero!
136: Was I named after anyone?: I was named after a character on a Soap Opera… true story
137: Do I like my handwriting?: Sometimes…
138: What was my favourite toy as a child?: My effin super nintendo! Blow in that shit!
139: Favourite Tv Show?: Gossip Girl… and the new challenge
140: Where do I want to live when older?: Like I said… Vegas, CO or NYC… or Cali…
141: Play any musical instrument?: Just my sweet vocal chords! haha
142: One of my scars, how did I get it?: I have this one on the side of my ankle… I got it mountain biking… And by mountain biking I mean I was begging (no crying) them to not make me go and I fell and cut myself on a rock and said SEE, I told you I didn’t wanna do it…
143: Favourite pizza toping?: Hmm… Green chile… and pep
144: Am I afraid of the dark?: As I’ve stated twice… very much so
145: Am I afraid of heights?: Not really… although I hate being on ladders or roofs… So kind of… if it’s in a control environment I’m cool
146: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad?: Happened all the time
147: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end?: It’s part of life…
148: What I’m really bad at: Running… although I love it
149: What my greatest achievments are: graduating college and landing this gig at the ABQ journal without applying for it…
150: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me: Hmmm… I get told I’m selfish alot… Maybe that…?
151: What I’d do if I won in a lottery: I’d pay off my debts and my mom’s, buy her a house, move to NYC and take an awesome vacation around the world with my best friend
152: What do I like about myself: I’m honest and I’m positive… two of my best qualities… And I’m actually pretty funny sometimes… but in my own brand of funny, I’m weird…
153: My closest Tumblr friend: Hmm…
154: Something I fantasize about: Getting out of NM

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Sun, 12 Feb 2012 15:00:24 -0700

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This exact moment

Sat, 04 Feb 2012 18:26:07 -0700

I came into the newsroom today feeling happy, excited and grateful for my life. It wasn’t so much that I was excited to start the work day or that I was happy to spend another Saturday night in the newsroom doing nothing (bc let’s be honest, as the trend has gone, nothing happens on Saturday nights). I was feeling grateful that my life had brought me here, to this exact moment. I’ve spent the last couple weeks getting acquainted to my new city and getting used to the idea of spending more nights alone than out with friends, mostly because my contact list in Albuquerque (ABQ) consists of like three people, and it seems like for once I’m finally okay with it.

Living in ABQ, as I’ve come to see it, is a new beginning. It’s the beginning of the end of my life in New Mexico as well as the beginning of my new life in the real world. I spend most of my time in the newsroom thinking about how I’m going to get out. I spend my time looking for writing options in cities like NYC, Las Vegas, LA, Denver and Austin. Anywhere but here, I tell myself.

The truth is, the only reason I want to get out of N.M., is because I feel like I have nothing left to give this era of my life. I’m finally ready to get out on my own and experience the life I know is waiting for me beyond this internship. All of this desire to get out made me think about the people who have made it through all the transitions I’ve had over the past few years.

Many of the relationships that I’ve established have been as a result of music. More specifically dance music. Somehow, these relationships have lasted past ones I made in HS and college. My EDM/trance family has become a central part of my life. They’re the friends I turn to when I need a pick-me-up, the friends I take trips around the southwest with and the friends that have my heart.

Now this is not to say that the friends who aren’t a part of my dance music family aren’t important, because the ones who have stuck by me through my years of crazy shenanigans are worth every moment as well. The thing is it just baffles me that something as little as a genre of music can be such a strong base for a friendship.

Through music festivals and shows I’ve met some of the most genuine and insightful friends. I met two of the most amazing guys in line for the Ferris Wheel at Coachella that I’ve kept in contact and visited in their home state of California over the past three years. I’ve met my crazy, free-spirited, only child rager twin as a result of a giant flower she had on her head at SVD and I’ve met my dance family as a result of a following my passion for not only music, but dance music especially.

I guess this epiphany has just come as a result of my move. Slowly, I’m discovering who I can really count on and who will make an effort to keep in contact with me while I get wrapped up in my daily life of trying to make it as a reporter. There’s been people who have completely come out of no where and we’ve been able to re-spark a friendship that was rather absent over the years and there are some that are just the opposite. Either way I’m just grateful that my life has brought me to this exact moment with the exact people who are still willing to be a part of my life. Lessons will be learned over the coming years but I’m most excited to learn more about myself and more about the friends who will become family. Lame I know, but it’s just what’s going on in my life at the moment. :)

Food for thought

Fri, 27 Jan 2012 20:43:00 -0700

The realm of electronic music is a central part of my life and I often find myself in debates about the validity, stability and value of the genre and culture as a whole. These debates often stir up a basket of mixed emotions in me and I can never really find the words to differentiate what’s going on in the mainstream and what made me fall in love with electronic music as a kid.

This was taken from a couple of my friends on Facebook who shared this on their news feed. It’s a quote from Steve Lawler that I think just embodies everything I’ve ever tried to say about electronic music and its culture and what it’s become and what it never will be.

Steve Lawler couldn’t have said it any better…

Do you think the spirit of rave culture as opposed to club culture is dead? Or could it come back?

Lawler: It’s just changed. And I have to be brutally honest here … And this is something that I have wanted to say for a while now. Maybe it’s not a direct answer to your question, but I don’t believe “EDM” is even what we do. Dance music is not the same as house music. Yes, it makes you dance — we all know that! But what I have seen happen in America in the last two years is the explosion of commercial pop-electro-dance music and so many people think it’s the same culture, the same scene as what we do with house and techno, and it isn’t! It so isn’t. Just because they’re both electronic produced tracks does not mean they should exist in the same scene. If I wanted to listen to pop music, I would choose a ballad or a rock song or something that just means something. This electro-pop-dance that all the R&B artists are jumping on is the worst music I have ever heard in my whole life — cheap, no soul, no meaning. [It’s] only made to make money. I don’t even like calling what we do dance music, because some people think it’s a part of that. What we do is house and techno, and it does have a meaning and a feeling. Just as it’s always been, and just how it will always be for us that love house music.

(Side Note: Alfredo Macias is the person who originally posted this on his feed, I then took it from Kassia)