Coming to Albuquerque I knew I was going to learn a lot of new lessons.
As an intern at the Journal, I figured my writing would improve and I’d learn some new skills in newswriting. As a roommate, I figured I’d learn new life lessons and as a new comer in this city, I figured I’d learn my way around. All of which seem to be true.
Well, aside from the obvious lessons I was expecting I learned a lot more about myself than I anticipated.
I’ve had a lot on my mind as of late, and by a lot I mean planning my life after this internship ends in May. I made the decision to get out of this desert hole called New Mexico and move on to a new life in Las Vegas. Yes, the Las Vegas.While a couple of people think that city isn’t right for me, taking my crazy antics and partying ways into account, I personally think it’s right where I need to be.
The reason I’m not scared to make this leap of faith is because of what I’ve learned here in Albuquerque.
I’m okay by myself. I’m good at being alone and going on solo missions. And it’s insanely easy for me to meet people and make friends on my own.
In other words, I can take care of myself. That’s what Albuquerque has taught me.
I mean, in Cruces it was SO easy for me to rely on my friends. If I didn’t want to face a problem alone (or at all) a friend was just a phone call away. In Albuquerque, that was not the case. Here, in ABQ, I basically had like one friend. I mean, I have more but I had one friend that I knew I could trust whole heartedly. And even though I couldn’t be more thankful to have her in my life, there were still some things that I just couldn’t tell her.
Being forced to deal with my problems, fears and and crazy ideas for the future alone really made me see how strong I am. By no means did I have to go through anything insanely rough but simply adjusting to a new city you’re not happy in can be kind of difficult in its own sense.
Anywho, knowing that I can handle my own has been incredibly life changing. I love knowing that I can go out and have a drink by myself and not feel insecure. I love that I can go to shows and entertain myself and meet new people. I mean, I was basically doing that in El Paso anyway because anyone who knows me, knows that I love to go off and wander by myself but it’s TOTALLY different in Albuquerque. I don’t have that safety net of friends waiting around for me upstairs or on the dancefloor. Here I’m genuinely going out by myself, dancing by myself and it’s all alright. I fucking love it actually.
I’m so excited for these next two months to pass because once they’re done, I’m done. With Albuquerque, that is. I’m thrilled for this new adventure that I have planned for myself. I don’t know what’s going to happen, where I’ll be working, who I’ll meet or how things will play out but I know everything’s going to be fine. It’s the right adventure for me. Something has been pulling me towards Las Vegas for easily the past year and that pull has been overwhelmingly strong and that’s how I know it’s the right move for me. That pull and natural curiosity towards the city is how I know I’m doing the right thing.
There’s so much room for growth for me and I feel like there’s so many opportunities out there for me. I’ve known most my life that I wanted to somehow get involved in the entertainment and nightlife business, so what better place to make my dreams come true than one of the nightlife and entertainment capital’s of the US. It just makes perfect sense to me.
So in two months I’m taking a leap. This may just be the biggest chance I’ve ever taken in my life. I’m pretty much putting it in God’s hands. I’m going to Vegas and I’m going to make it. I’ll accept nothing less.