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Today is good.

Today is good.

Honestly, I haven’t said that enough lately.

I’ve been so let down by my trials and ventures off the path I thought I set out to do the past couple months that I haven’t really taken the chance to just appreciate a good day, no matter how small.

And that’s such a shame.

My life here in Vegas hasn’t been hard. I’ve been extremely fortunate to have the opportunities (no matter how big or small) presented to me. I moved out here with a place to live, a small handful of friends and a job at my feet. I’ve met a couple of people who have become my friends and landed a really great internship that has taught me that I really do want to pursue the PR industry as a career. Call me crazy but I’d say I’m doing well for a kid fresh out of college who didn’t have an exact idea of what I wanted to create with my life.

What it comes down to is the little things, that’s what makes your day good.

I’ve kept my dreams alive with small glimmers of what I imagine my life to be. Every time I get down about my work at Best Buy, about not knowing how I’m going to balance paying the bills with having a social life or with not knowing what lies ahead, simply imagining my future keeps me going.

Daydreaming makes my day good. And every day I am thankful that I can dream about my future because it means there’s a fire inside of me that strives for something better.

That’s enough for me right now.

Today is good because I can dream.

Today is good because I hope for a better tomorrow and a better life.

Today is good because I know tomorrow (some tomorrow) will always be better than my day was today. I feel like it sounds a bit cheesy but I know that because I am driven to make something happen in the future, whether it be in my career, a future trip, with friends or when I finally fall in love, I always have will always have something to look forward to and that makes today worth living.

So recently I stumbled upon an article on the Forbes website titled “40 Things to Say Before You Die” and I was immediately drawn in. As I read through their list I began to realize how many of the phrases on this list that I had either though or said in my life, most over the past year.

I’ve grown so much even since my graduation in December. It really is a beautiful process and I’ve learned so much about myself in that short time frame. 

So after reading this article I was inspired to share my stories or dreams of these 40 things I must say before I die. With that, here is my first blog in my attempt to fulfill this personal challenge and share my story with the world.

The first phrase:

40) “I wonder.”

How simple a thought, “I wonder.” 

What have you wondered about today? Or this week? 

October is a new month for new dreams and new goals. 

For me the past week has made me wonder about the possibility of a new career opportunity. I recently interviewed for a PR Coordinator position with Faiss Foley Warren and it’s all I’ve been day dreaming and “wondering” about. I’m driving myself insane with all the possibilities of my future with this company and how they could simply be the kick start my PR career in Vegas needs.

Aside from my new PR possibilities, I’ve been wondering where my life will lead me in the coming years. I honestly can’t even plan my life past the next couple of weeks so wondering about the next year, the next five years is plenty for me and my imagination to go wild with.

Here’s what I see:

I definitely do not plan on making Vegas my home. Initially I thought I would stay here but after these few months I’ve figured out it’s most definitely somewhere I just wanna jump start my career and get real PR firm experience. 

I see myself moving to Cali around 25-27 years of age. Why? Well I’m 23 now, so that gives me time to get this “experience” I’m talking about as well as kind of figure out what my niche in PR is so that I can successfully apply my passions and talents to that brand of PR. 

Now I want to move to Cali simply because I think that’s definitely my kind of place, my kind of surroundings, my kind of people. It’ll just be an easy fit in for me. I’ve always had nothing but love for Cali and that love grew stronger with each and every trip I took to SoCal. There’s just an endless amount of possibilities and you don’t run the risk of meeting the same kind of people, as you do here in Vegas.

Here’s the thing about Vegas, yes, for nightlife and entertainment PR I definitely chose the right place. However, and most importantly, I just don’t know that there are quality people here I can feel comfortable calling my friends, my partners in crime and that’s just unsettling to me. I live for my friends and not being able to find the kind of people I’m used to surrounding myself with is unnerving and uncomfortable with me. I thrive being in friendships I can depend on, on friendships who depend on me as well and there’s just not enough of that here for me to want to stay. 

Vegas will simply be a place I learned something about myself from. A place that pushed me outside my comfort level. A place that forced me to struggle and helped me become stronger bc I was able to bounce back from my struggles, no matter how small or large they may have seemed. A place that forced me to take a look at my morals and see what I was okay and not okay with. (And there has definitely been a lot of moral evaluation going on in my head the past few months… Since I got here really) 

There’s just so much to simply “wonder” about. It’s beautiful actually. Beautiful and simple. 

Coming to Albuquerque I knew I was going to learn a lot of new lessons.

As an intern at the Journal, I figured my writing would improve and I’d learn some new skills in newswriting. As a roommate, I figured I’d learn new life lessons and as a new comer in this city, I figured I’d learn my way around. All of which seem to be true.

Well, aside from the obvious lessons I was expecting I learned a lot more about myself than I anticipated.

I’ve had a lot on my mind as of late, and by a lot I mean planning my life after this internship ends in May. I made the decision to get out of this desert hole called New Mexico and move on to a new life in Las Vegas. Yes, the Las Vegas.While a couple of people think that city isn’t right for me, taking my crazy antics and partying ways into account, I personally think it’s right where I need to be.

The reason I’m not scared to make this leap of faith is because of what I’ve learned here in Albuquerque.

I’m okay by myself. I’m good at being alone and going on solo missions. And it’s insanely easy for me to meet people and make friends on my own.

In other words, I can take care of myself. That’s what Albuquerque has taught me.

I mean, in Cruces it was SO easy for me to rely on my friends. If I didn’t want to face a problem alone (or at all) a friend was just a phone call away. In Albuquerque, that was not the case. Here, in ABQ, I basically had like one friend. I mean, I have more but I had one friend that I knew I could trust whole heartedly. And even though I couldn’t be more thankful to have her in my life, there were still some things that I just couldn’t tell her.

Being forced to deal with my problems, fears and and crazy ideas for the future alone really made me see how strong I am. By no means did I have to go through anything insanely rough but simply adjusting to a new city you’re not happy in can be kind of difficult in its own sense.

Anywho, knowing that I can handle my own has been incredibly life changing. I love knowing that I can go out and have a drink by myself and not feel insecure. I love that I can go to shows and entertain myself and meet new people. I mean, I was basically doing that in El Paso anyway because anyone who knows me, knows that I love to go off and wander by myself but it’s TOTALLY different in Albuquerque. I don’t have that safety net of friends waiting around for me upstairs or on the dancefloor. Here I’m genuinely going out by myself, dancing by myself and it’s all alright. I fucking love it actually.

I’m so excited for these next two months to pass because once they’re done, I’m done. With Albuquerque, that is. I’m thrilled for this new adventure that I have planned for myself. I don’t know what’s going to happen, where I’ll be working, who I’ll meet or how things will play out but I know everything’s going to be fine. It’s the right adventure for me. Something has been pulling me towards Las Vegas for easily the past year and that pull has been overwhelmingly strong and that’s how I know it’s the right move for me. That pull and natural curiosity towards the city is how I know I’m doing the right thing.

There’s so much room for growth for me and I feel like there’s so many opportunities out there for me. I’ve known most my life that I wanted to somehow get involved in the entertainment and nightlife business, so what better place to make my dreams come true than one of the nightlife and entertainment capital’s of the US. It just makes perfect sense to me.

So in two months I’m taking a leap. This may just be the biggest chance I’ve ever taken in my life. I’m pretty much putting it in God’s hands. I’m going to Vegas and I’m going to make it. I’ll accept nothing less.

Truth. And my life. ❤

<3 Kaskade

This man makes some of the most beautiful music I have ever heard. He’s changed my life more than once and I can’t wait til I get to see him live again… Sure I just saw him in August, but I could see him every weekend and my opinion of him and his music would never change. One day, when I’m a real journalist out in the real world, I will interview him and it will not only be the single greatest day of my life, but I wouldn’t be surprised if it ends up being one of best pieces I write. 

Smile no matter what the world says <3

My future <3

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“Happy are those who dream dreams and are willing to pay the price to make them come true.”